Never have I ever...

...been this scared to sleep in my own room.

I'm 28, and at the start of Covid-19, I renovated this room to build my safe space.

Right now, it's the least safe space for me.

I haven't slept here in over 3 weeks now. I'll only come up here to get a change of clothes or to have a smoke.

Maybe it's the feeling of being alone, whereas when I'm at my mum's I know she is just there.

But I guess it really doesn't matter where I am physically, because never have I ever felt this alone in my own mind before.